Reformed Loser

Have to get to the point on time tonight, as I am now drinking a protein beverage, and will have to exercise at digestion time. This post will not be well thought-out or polished, which might make it the best one ever.


Before I go into any specific goals, I'll share some fundamental goals:

In no particular order (numbered for the purpose of later expansion):

1. Be clean
2. Be active
3. Be profitable
4. Be sexy
5. Be organized

That should do for right now.

(1) Be clean. I don't think this goal requires too much explanation. Proverbially, cleanliness is next to godliness. As mentioned yesterday, my living environment is a damn mess. I don't really know what worldly resources are available to me because everything is everywhere. My goal? Another proverb, "a place for everything and everything in its place." Personal (bodily) cleanliness is something I've got a handle on, though I'm no extremist. I eat food off the floor and I probably always will.

(2) Be active. I have been very lucky with my formative-years environment. My parents gave me love, good genes, good siblings, and a beautiful city to grow up with. This gave me a significant advantage, and in school, I didn't have to try until about the sixth grade. At this time I began a downward spiral, and though I managed a 1350 SAT score, I didn't graduate high school, and at age 29, I do not have a college degree. I need to be active, set goals, and work to achieve them. I love being alone and reflecting, but I need things to reflect on. I live in Western North Carolina, home to possibly the oldest, and definitely some of the most beautiful mountains in the world, but to me they're just a backdrop, I need to go to them and experience them.

(3) Be profitable. I love money. Beginning around 2000 BC, currency has fertilized and facilitated the exchange of ideas, and if you get enough scratch, you can empower your own. That's about all I've got to say about that. Oh, one more thing. When you're working in produce, money is relatively hard to come by.

(4) Be sexy. I feel a little silly using the word sexy, but I'll have to get over it. I want it (take that however you like, you're probably correct). To this end I've put an (awesome) olympic weight bench in this room, and have had some success with it over the past year. Being sexy is more than that, though (see (3), above). It's kind of a catch-all. Are you strong and lean? That's sexy. Are you rich and powerful? That's sexy. Are you a creative genius? That's very sexy.

(5) Be organized. In my mind, and for the purposes of this post, this goal is similar to (1), above. The first specific goal I think of in regard to this is tabulating the flood of gd receipts I have, scattered everywhere. In a more general sense, this goal should be read as the "planning" part of last night's post:

"...So. How [will I make myself great]? In no particular order, discipline, planning, and outside help."

That's it for tonight. I'm going to try and get hold of a camera so's I can better document my current situation. I'll give you pictures of my messy rooms, my beloved hoopty, and I don't know what-all. Good night.